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I swallow a different truth each day.
I rip the shells and pound the husks,
expecting life to erupt in the language
of each day.
I keep stepping towards and stepping
around the prophecies that are quoted verbatim,
even as my land hails its nuclear precision
and America hails its gun-toting hallways.
Why have the Arabs not raised their voices,
and why do my neighbors practice impotence?
Why has the crudeness of oil become the
lifafa* within which life stammers on its way
to a postal address? I swallow a different truth
each day. These are the most peaceful times
in earth’s storied history, a sociologist
might gauge. I swallow a different truth
each day. Desire is the price I pay
for every desire I consume. A kiss
consumed, a kiss gone. It isn’t my place
to question the transience as such,
given that I’m prone to buying into
karma and all. For every desire I consume,
it’s desire I nurse. I swallow a different truth
each day. Morality’s a tricky thing when
God answers to Beyoncé, and the
mulberries are blossoming up to
twice their given size. We’re even
manufacturing babies, I suppose fruits
were a given. We’re even renouncing
faith, I suppose addiction was the
next best thing. In a Palestine of my
imagining, a child weaves
a school project from a wounded wraith.
I swallow a different truth each day.
I wish to be in Palestine, nestled beneath
the arithmetic of pines and a land so
closely sewn to my own. There are
no more angels, let this be known.
We’re fighting wars. We’re fighting
ghosts. We’re fighting the tides.
We’re fighting those last few inches
that Antarctica holds on to as though
it were holding Jesus in plumes.
I swallow a fistful of tablets, even the
body must find its way to the truth.
In Japan, single people are living in
clusters of pods. In Japan, cherries
are erupting across acres of disarray.
I swallow a different truth each day.
I want to believe in the inherent goodness
and majesty of my land. I want to
believe that the Vedas and the Koran
weren’t mimicking a radio channel
whose only claim is the least number
of ad breaks. I want to believe that
purity is the vessel on which all of us
float, as these oceans summon their
sagas in wake. Night has swallowed
one half of the earth. Perhaps morning
will cleanse these steps of the muck.
I swallow a different truth each day.
← Siddharth Dasgupta
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