Poetry at Sangam

SangamHouse

 










ANTI-THEFT, OR MEDITATIONS ON A PINK WALL OF MY OWN MAKING by Aditi Nagrath

  The anatomy of 
my decisions
  is clean, poised. 
              I know
its delicate
  skeleton edge
to edge, 
       my love.
  You are: my love.
As definite
  as teeth. 
            Here or
not quite, it 
  doesn’t matter
what we call 
  this. You are

the choice 
  I make without
choosing. 
               But what
does this clarity
  lend itself to? 
         I think of you 
  sprawled in my
small half-room
  last summer, 
& the summer before,
  your form
impermeable. 
      I am glad to live
elsewhere now, 
  the halls undarked
by you. 
      That is perhaps
what brought me here,
  or drove me away, 
or however you want
  to put it. 
           I imagine
  you’d say something
strange, absurd, words
  unique to you with
which you’d settle in-
  to permanence again.

            I imagine your 
  shapes & sorrows 
often, defining mine,
  giving them reason,
a stone to
  knife myself against,
but I’m tired
  after all 
of having to be
  cruel just to ease
you off 
  the surface. 
       This is my wall,
  my house, my body,
emptied, taken away
  from you. Pink & 
tender. Glistening,
  gentle. You should know
I made this
  happen. 

 
 

ADITI NAGRATH