Poetry at Sangam

SangamHouse

 










A STORY OF QUALIA by Susanna Crossman

I see red. My red. He is crouched beside me, drawing in a notebook.

Red crayons in his hands. A red boat on a white page. 

I respond. There is a word for this.

As if my naming this something, his seeing, 

puts the red of his red of his picture in a frame. 

You’re red. He points at a figure. Traces my red body. My red head

round like the moon. The boat’s sails are wax crayon red. Above a

whorl of clouds. A squiggly, scratch of red. 

You’re going away mama. He adds my red suitcases, my red bags

and a red computer.

You can write. He says.

My thoughts turn to a book, the concept of ‘qualia’ printed in six

letters on a page. 

I want to tell him about: thesubjective“whatitislike”qualitative

experiencesituationsperceptionandsensation

how his red and my red are miles apart 

how no two seen reds can be the same. 
 

But while I seek an explanation, he is sketching red waves 

a choppy sea

an anchor is hoisted.

red wind fills the sails, and before I can speak 

I am heading towards the red line of the horizon. 

I am sailing away in his red wax crayon boat.

Bon voyage. I wave goodbye, with my red stick hand. 

He and the continent disappear. 

Alone on the red deck, in my red body 

held by red lines, 

I am left wondering about the solitude of ‘qualia’.

On my red computer I begin to write: 

of our seeing 

of only 

of our reds.
 


SUSANNA CROSSMAN